Why am I here?
My two year old son died -- Now I am building a healing community for Bereaved Mothers.
Why?!
Why me?
Why my child?!
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Why am I here?
Every bereaved mother has screamed these excruciating questions, with her head in her hands - including myself.
“Why am I here?” is a question that conscious folk often ask themselves - especially during times of upheaval and chaos.
There must be a greater purpose for all of this pain..
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In this present moment, I am here writing my first post on substack.
I am a Bereaved Mother who is building a healing community to help Bereaved Mothers recognize their grief as a source of healing and empowerment through Somatic Grief Coaching, Womens Circle and Spiritual Development.
I haven’t always been here.. and in this post I will take a look back at my life, in hindsight, to give you a glimpse at how I got here and what you can expect to find on my substack.
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Hindsight is a beautiful thing.
Indeed, when I look back at all the traumatic events and pivotal moments of my life, I now see that they were somewhat necessary to catapult me to where I am now.
I could go into all the nitty-gritty but that is all in the book I am writing.
Long story short; I went to school, then to university and then left the UK for what ended up being a ten year pilgrimage in various countries around the globe.
Along the way, I:
worked on a courgette farm in the Australian outback,
worked in energy and solar power,
got burnt out,
had my heart broken,
studied yoga,
lived in various intentional communities in Latin America,
worked with Amazonian plant medicine,
lived with my (now ex) partner in his Nicaraguan community,
immersed myself in women's work and sacred circles,
had a miscarriage,
trained as a somatic life coach,
gave birth to my son,
built a home from the earth
and buried my son.
When I look back, it’s clear that my life has been far from linear - and it’s also clear that my life has been marked by change - big change.
Continuous transformation.
I’ve had a series of traumatic events that have - quite literally - shaken me back onto the path that I was always meant to walk.
For a while it seemed like I was following an ordinary path: going to school, going to university etc.. but I could never shake the feeling that there was something more to life. So I went on a path of discovery.
Learning from the school of life.
Living in the unknown, being guided by my intuition and a relentless desire for truth.
What’s also clear to me, in hindsight, is that there have been distinct threads that have led me to the answers of why I am here..
my early passion for books and writing,
my fascination with the human body, mind, and soul,
my apparent inability to accept the status quo without deep inquiry,
my deep pull towards the land in Latin America,
my curiosity and reverence for indigenous wisdom,
and my initiations with birth and death.
Come to think about it, the question Why? has been the pulse of my entire life.
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I’ve explored various ancient traditions around the globe and they all seem to point towards the same thing: Knowing thyself is the purpose of life - if, of course, you seek to become enlightened.
Through yoga, astrology, spiritual guidance and personal exploration I’ve come to understand that this work is not random - it’s karmic. It’s sacred.
So why am I here on substack?
Because, I have a story to tell
that could help people
and so I have a duty.
I’m here to share the wisdom I have gained through my experiences to help others who might find themselves in a similar situation, and to inspire others who also feel like there’s something more to life than what they’ve been told.
So if you are a Bereaved Mother, a Griever, a Spiritual being — if you are curious about change and living to your fullest potential..
Follow me on substack and join New Earth Healing online community.
With love,
Rachel x